In the past I have always been apathetic with an “why bother” type of mentality. They’re going to say no… I shouldn’t even try? Its why I haven’t hit on girls often and why it’s really hard for me to land a job. I do this with the hope that I’ll get something that I’ll fit into. Eventually something that I deserve and I don’t deserve that. That’s too good for me. So on and so fourth.
But now, I’m trying to change myself in a better I don’t care manner. Something along the lines of I don’t care if I fail, I’m still going to go for it. I’m going to apply for jobs that state I need more experience/higher GPA’s. I’m going to have the “go down swinging” mindset that will catapult me into a better position than right now: bored and unemployed.